how to begin life at age 25?

how do i change my world? how do i change my self-perception, change the sinful, satan-inspired self view that makes me think i am anything less than what i am?
i am a son of God. He created me, loves me, and died to be with me, all without anything being done on my part. i do not deserve it but here i sit with the gift in my lap, waiting to be opened.
this is truth. how do i apply something so... unfamiliar to myself?
we'll see.

ugh.

i hate this feeling of inadequacy, of not being good enough or desired enough. it makes my entire effort, my entire life and worth seem pointless. even knowing the awe-inspiring love God has for me is clouded over by mere men. ugh.

prepare ye the way

i feel as if i am in a time of preparation, of flipping the switch and walking into the choices i've made. some are merely interesting, and others important; some easy and others scare me half to death.

the easiest deception

why do i do the things i do not want to do, and do not do the things i want to do?
what a wretched man i am.
Jesus, help me to be more like you, for i surely cannot succeed on my own.

not merely hearers but doers

so i've realized i have sometimes been saying i want to do things, and then not doing them. let's stop this. for real. i want an uninhibited walk with God, one untainted by sin and apathy or laziness.
help me, please.

it's the weird little things.

i got evangelized to by a customer today. i was worried about talking about Jesus and she started asking me what church i go to and whether i believe Jesus died for my sins. i love my God.

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What if our lives were not so burdened with earthly things but were instead focused on being an example of Godly things to those who don't know Him?

What if my life were like that?

Hmm...