prepare ye the way

i feel as if i am in a time of preparation, of flipping the switch and walking into the choices i've made. some are merely interesting, and others important; some easy and others scare me half to death.

the easiest deception

why do i do the things i do not want to do, and do not do the things i want to do?
what a wretched man i am.
Jesus, help me to be more like you, for i surely cannot succeed on my own.